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Name: Shannon
Country: United States
State: Arizona
Metro: Tucson
Birthday: 2/1/1984
Gender: Female
Interests: Love, Family, Friends, Music, Animals
Expertise: Guiding Friends through Problems, listening, Praying, Getting through hard times
Occupation: Other
Industry: Nonprofit
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
Member Since:
4/25/2004
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| The days of xanga must be over...no one reads this, or no one cares. Probably good either way I guess....well, this is me, signing off I suppose. | | |
| A new year....possibility for new things, so they say. More then likely though, it will be the same. The same bullshit with roomates. The same bullshit with money. The same bullshit inside myself. How do you change all that. You cut off certain aspects of your life to make a difference, and other areas start to creep in and become just as ridiculus as everything else used to be. You wake up one morning to find that everything you loved about the place you were in has caved in on itself and turned into some stupid twisted shit. I tried to get out. instead I got sucked in more, and now i'm sufficating. I drowned once already, does this really have to keep happening before I learn something new? Why can't I just get another job, move to another place, and learn to be ignorant again? Why do I keep sticking around when I can see the rapids around me are increasing in strength and are chilling me to the bone? What kind of love is this that keeps me hanging on despite everything it's doing to me? | | |
| So, quick run down of life at the moment... Went to Mexico recently, and tommorow i'm headed to San Diego. Been traveling so much that I don't feel I have time to enjoy it really. I get to come home for Thanksgiving, which is awesome! As soon as i'm home, the next day i'm supposed to go to a rock concert. I don't know where I will go after that but I'm assuming it will either be home again for christmas, or to visit Rachel. Damn I miss that girl so much. I realized she was kinda the glue that held our 4-some friendship together (me plus the other two I live with). Now we are all kinda drifting, or becoming stagnent with each other. Nick and I constantly bicker about stupid things, while he plays his passive agressive role as the "man of the house" and Meg and I, well...she's constantly looking for something more exciting. I think she see's me as someone who stays the same, who doesn't adjust well to change, and who is dependent upon people to make me happy. Only some of these things are true.... My animals are doing great! I love them, and always feel bad when I have to leave for long periods of time to travel. What am I thinking most of the time? I don't really have the money to go, but go I do. I always have fun, it's just not the most financially intelligent thing to do. I spend alot of time working, and alot of time with my mentee, Allegra. She's 15 and has emotional problems running out her ears due to her history. I love her a lot. She's like the lil' sis I didn't get to have cause I was the lil sis (no offense to Zack...hehe) Sometimes this girl drives me crazy 'cause she's got so many problems and has such a HARD time overcoming any of them...but I stick with her all the same. She reminds me of, well, me. Well, this is enough dumping my private life onto the internet for now. Love, Shan | | |
| I'm going to Rocky Point Mexico tommorow morning with Meg and some other frisbee friends. I'm so glad to be getting away without my other roommates around for once. I made a few bad decisions yesterday, and i'm positive i'll make more this weekend, but then i've decided it's time to stop fucking around so much. That tends to make people worry, and I don't really like people worrying about me. A little growing up needs to happened, and even if I have to pretend that everything is ok and fine for awhile when it's really not in order to deal with those things I think thats better then making bad decisions. If you pretend something long enough, it's bound to eventually happen, right? I guess i'll find out.... -Shan | | |
| Life is fast. Everything is always happening at once to everyone at the same time. You can't predict it, although you can make yourself numb to it. We are the generational junkies of shit. We pine for every new action, but hate the changes it creates and i'm tired of it friends. Dead tired of it. | | |
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